Interesting week that has lead me to create this blog. And I don't even know what a blog is but I guess I am doing it.
I have been very frustrated with the pain cause from my back. A lot of the time I just want to just sit and stare at nothing.
I realized with in the last year that I have been dealing with pain since I was about 10 or 12 years old and didn't know it or was in denial. It all started back about 50 years ago when I was a kid, I lifted a 10 foot long 2 inch solid steel bar and moved it about 5 feet. No one had told me I could not do that or even if I tried it would hurt me. So I moved the steel bar and that night was in immense pain.
My parents took me to the doctor who confirmed that I had hurt my back, gave me exercises and told my parents to have me sleep on a hard bed. But, being a boy and thinking I am supposed to be like John Wayne I didn't want to admit I was hurt. The exercises were boring and I lied to my parents that I was fine so they wouldn't bug me. I quickly forgot the injury but it didn't go away.
All through junior high and high school I couldn't sit still in class so was either disruptive, fell asleep, or just didn't go. I liked to learn stuff but hated school, but because I had hidden the back injury and wouldn't admit to it, sitting in class was very uncomfortable (painful) and I could not focus. Ergo school sucked.
Needless to say, I have never been keen on attending lectures, concerts or any venue where you are required to sit.
A little over 2 years ago my back had enough and I awoke at 2:00 am in terrible pain through out my abdomen, pelvis, legs and feet. I went to the doctor and she gave me pain killers but I had cancer surgery about 3 prior so I was referred to my oncologist. His PA saw the problem right away and I had X-Rays and MRIs that confirmed my L4 & L5 were damaged but not totally gone. There was now arthritis from the years of neglect.
We opted for physical therapy as the treatment, but that is a story (a good one) for another day.
But today there is still pain that comes and goes depending how dedicated I am to taking my meds and doing my exercises.
Strange as this may seem, this adventure has opened many door to love, beauty and blessings. Go Figure.
