November 4, 2013

The journey continues. My chiropractor has ordered a series of tests to see if we can find out what is going on with me, blood, urine, stool and saliva. All I know is that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I talked to my boss and let him know what is going on with me and he said to take care of my health.

My son and his girl friend moved into their house over the weekend. They seem happy to be out of mom and dad’s place. Although, they were only with us for about 3 to 4 weeks. I’m going to miss them.

I guess fall is now over, it snowed yesterday and is cold today. Well fall is nothing more than an average temp anyway. But, the colors have been pretty and there has been a few day that have felt wonderful.

I pray every morning, and for the last little while I have been seeing where I have been giving God orders as if he were a waitress taking my order. I don’t think God works that way, even though I have received many, many blessings. But I tend to over think things trying to figure ‘it’ out. So this may be just an extension of my over thinking.

Seen that almost all philosophies talk about surrender and we humans confuse that with giving up. I know I do on a subconscious level. But, there are times when I seem to surrender and let go and let God and oh does it feel good. BUT, my thinking gets in the way and I think I don’t deserve to feel good or I am just being delusional. Yet it does feel good and in those times I do feel happy, joyous and free. I wish it would last or at least accept it.  

Well, time to go for today. Till next time.

Thy will not mine be done.