September 18, 2012

It has been a while since I last wrote in my blog. The reason is one some of you may find familiars.  I felt like what I have to write is not important and nobody wants to read this shit. But my good friend said he missed reading my stuff.

It is fall and I hate the fall. Mostly because I get allergies and school would always start in the fall and I didn’t do very good in school. Yet when I go outside and just sit I really enjoy the coolness of the temperature and the muted light. Yesterday when I was getting ready to go to work I just started hurting to the point of not being able to move. I took some medicine, called into work and said I would be around noon and crawled into my lazy boy recliner and fell asleep. When I fall asleep at times like this it is not that I am tired but an escape from the discomfort. I pretty much check out into an altered state. When I come to I am not groggy as I am after sleeping at night it more like reality is turned off and then back on and I am as alert as if I had been awake for hours.

When I check out like this it doesn’t work when I am at work. People think you are being lazy and sleeping at your desk when in reality the pain of being tied to a desk becomes so great that I can stand no more and it just happens. You may be thinking “Well, why do you get up and walk around every so often so the pain doesn’t build?” I do all the time but it only works about 50% of the time. Sounds like I am being a victim and maybe there is some truth to it. As I write this blog I am in a lot of pain, have taken my meds, been walking around and having a hard time.

If you hear frustration in my writing it is because I am. What am I missing? I exercise, do physical therapy, go to a chiropractor, Tia Chi, Kung Fu, regular Doctor, take meds and even pray. Is my name really JOB???????