September 24, 2012

Damn these Thought for the Days!!! They keep striking way to close to home

Thought for the Day

“We shall seek the truth
and endure the consequences.”

Charles Seymour
(1884-1963)

Okay so I have been seeking the truth or something like it. You know looking for answers and most of the time I come away suffering the consequences.

I have often heard that “you can’t handle the truth” but I have always thought that as just bunk; some egotistical way of putting me down by “The Man” so to speak. Yet here it is once again and not so egotistical.

A long time ago I was complaining that God doesn’t answer my prayers. And someone told me that He/She/It may be answering my prayers and the problem may be with my expectations. Well the way they put it to me was, “Be careful of what you pray for as you just might get it.” Wholly Crap!! It took me a long time and being made aware of this fact multiple times that God answered each and everyone of my prayers but what was happening was my expectations were not in line with what I was asking for. It is sort of asking for food and expecting a million dollars. Yes you could buy a lot of food for a million dollars but the request is completely different.

Case in point, just recently I found myself wanting a woman who would give the kind of sex you only read about in Penthouse and what I discovered was I just wanted to be loved. And to complicate the request I just want to be able to accept love. Now there is a big difference between asking for a Penthouse type relationship and to being able to accept love.

Just so you are clear, and incase my wife read this blog, my wife is in no means a prude. But even a wonderful and giving a person that she is will get discouraged when her advances are not receive or accepted. Wow, I amazed myself again as I didn’t expect that to come out and what I am seeing is that when I point a finger at someone 4 others are pointing back at me. I had created my own reality of not being loved or loveable.

Each day I find or should I say open my eyes to the fact that all the love and passion I could possibly want or could handle is already in my life. I look at my wife when she is sleeping and am amazed at the beauty of curve of her hips, the shape of her legs and how delicate and sensuous her hands and feet are. If it wasn’t for the snoring I would question whether I was dreaming it or observing the reality.

In closing, I get every one of my prayers answered. But today I am more conscious of what my expectations are; this helps me to focus on what I pray for so that they are in line. When my expectations and prayer requests are in line I see just how lucky and blessed I am.